BY AADIL GULAM DAR,M.A EDUCATION, ALIGARH
MUSLIM UNIVERSITY .
it was 9 o’clock usually the school timing and my Aaga-g asked me that, Are
not you going school today?. I replied , today is again a strike means
“hartal”. I think none other than a Kashmiri as a child , adult and old age is
familiar clearly with this term (Hartal). Well it is a complete shutdown like
no transport, closed markets, schools & colleges were off but if there is
anything observable that is Army and Police everywhere.
Then he (Aaga-g) told me that not to go out of home and
if there is any emergency so keep your i.card with you. I was amazed but
angered that why it happens? . Why these hartal’s took place?. Why I cannot go
out of my home?. Why my I.d is compulsory if it is my home, my land?. Why my
school if off?. Why I cannot go out freely to play with my friends?. Why our
markets are closed?. And more painful was this ,why our sisters are soo afraid
even they were in their own homes?. Why
they were not going to their own fields and apple gardens alone?. Why our
mothers are not living a life of joy and happiness?. Why she is always afraid
of her children?. Why these tall black uniformed men are always patrolling near
my home?. Why they are always heavy
loaded with different weapons and looking towards us with a thought of
killing?. Why they always checked us and even beat us?. The continuous tides of
why and why in my mind created a ‘why cyclone’. I got frustrated for a while
and pain started in my heart. Then I
fastly came out of room and went to my
Aaga-g . I told him all the above and
lastly ended with again a why?. His answer does not satisfy me but stops my why
thought and created a barrier which does
not allow me to think more about ‘why’.
The simple but very painful answer was this ,
“ GOBERA YE CHA KASHEER
, YETH DUNIYAH JANNATH
VANNAN MAGAR SANI
KHATERI JAHANUM”
(My son, this is Kashmir
world calls it a heaven but for us it is a hell). Then he coated the history
form 1980 to 90 when Kashmir was much under boil. I will present that in the
next write up ,inshallah.
IT HAS ALWAYS BECOME A
BARRIER FOR NEXT THOUGHT WHEN A WHY COMES IN THE MIND BUT BEING A KASHMIRI IT IS
A USUAL TERM RIGHT FROM THE CHILDHOOD. BUT AGAIN ‘WHY’.aadilgulamdar99@gmail.com
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